Barring logic, I knew from deep inside that writing music was one path I needed to follow. I began learning to program HTML in 2003 mainly because I wanted to use the web to share my music with my friends. You know to me, reading source code is like plain English, because I always view the source code on sites so that I can figure out how they were made—you might call this reverse engineering.
No longer am I jaded. I want to discover. My audio production skills—often learned by trial and error—have improved greatly through the past six years. But now, equipped with better knowledge—and the wisdom one finds during 30 years on Earth—I wonder if I’ve lost some of the fire that drove me to write music in the past. I think I made the mistake of looking too far ahead. In what we call reality, my body cannot keep up with my imagination, which is timeless. I’m taking the days as they come, and keeping faith that what is meant to happen, will happen. I’m making decisions for fundamental reasons.
Barring worldwide disaster, alien invasion, or Terminator-like machine takeovers, it’s likely that digital media—mp3′s, videos, websites—will be archived long into the future for the generations to come. Like the web, music is an infinite universe—we are inside it and it is inside us. I want to be a part of music that lives on. At times I’ve felt like every song I’ll ever write is already written inside of me. I’d like to believe that my best songs are unwritten but I feel they are already part of the universe.
At other times I think that music is a living part of the universe that we all can touch. I think songs are alive each time they are played or remembered and can be reincarnated through our minds, hearts, and souls. Right now I can’t identify my own path or purpose in life, but I’m optimistic to find out.
